Bittersweets in life .

.Thursday, April 30, 2009@7:29 AM.

Let the pictures do the talking aites (:
Pictures for today ~

And some left overs photos ~

That's it for pictures .
And you , i'm sorry if i have been moody nowadays .
I'm really really sorry . Something's affecting me .
I miss you every single day , wishing that you're by my side .
If only , it will come true . I swear i'll never leave you even for a second .
I love to see when you laugh & smile . I love the way you talk to me .
Thanks for being there for me . I miss you , boy ):

Labels: Don't rake up the past .

.Wednesday, April 29, 2009@5:01 AM.

As predicted , Maths was like fuck sia .
And i didn't do the whole of Maths paper . Yeah , so fucking hard .
I looked around the class , woah ! Everybody seem lost . Even the clever ones .
So , Monday having History paper . Serious have to study . hahaha .

Just now after school , met Yani and slacked . Huda joined . Followed by Nyet , Kecyk , Zul .
Followed by their friends. Wth . Noisy sia kecyk .
Sing here , sing there . Your face , i swear like drug addict sia . Hahah .
6+ we went home . Tired uh want type long-long .

I'll update again ~ BYE !

Labels: please ., Trust in me

.Tuesday, April 28, 2009@4:05 AM.

First and foremost , i did real badly for Social Studies . Fuck it man ~
Tomorrow is going to be worst . Maths oi ! Maaaaaaaaaaaaths !
I want to study but there's something that's holding me back .
Hoooooooooooooooow ? I really need to change . I will do whatever it takes to change .
Persistence , perseverence , focus & many more .
But , step by step . Yeah , if there's a will , there's a way . So , yeah .

Anyway , yesterday , went to study Social Studies with Azliany . Hidayah then joined but she didn't study . Met Riduan and Shafiq when we were about to go to Macdonalds .
Reached Mac , saw Idy and gang . Joined & study with them . Soon , Nabil's turn to join .
So , we went home at 10+ except for Shafiq , Riduan , Idy & Nabil . They went home ard 11+ ?

And today after school , went to Mac . On the way to mac , met johanis and shafiq first . Nabil came with Idy . So went to Mac with them except Johanis . He went home uh -.-
Then , home sweet home .

*I don't want to go to schoooooooooooool !

Labels: I'm sorry but i tried my very best .

.Monday, April 27, 2009@12:42 AM.

First and foremost . Social Studies , you're driving me crazy .
So , today was the first paper . English was a lilttle harder compared to Malay .
I swear i did anyhow . Cock up siaa .
Tomorrow , Social studies . I think i'll sit down there staring at the blank paper with blank brains . I wanted to go for my Social studies remedial just now but i felt lazy .
You see what i mean ? Exams is in progress , i can still say that i'm lazy for this and that .
How am i even going to pass ? I got a question for the MOE .
CAN I NOT TAKE MY ' N ' LEVEL , PREETY PLEASE ?
Urgh ~

My Social studies book is right infront of my eyes and i can still put it one side and surf the net , update my blog and whatsoever .
I really have to cut down on playing my laptop . Save electricity skalii lah kan ~
Kay mepek -.-

Iany is really asking me to study . But she herself hasn't started to study . I supposed ? Haha .

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

oi !

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

blaja la !

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

hahahaa ! kau step blaja jaaaaaaaaaaaa !

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

nak start ah ,

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

belambak siak nak blaja .

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

aper chap uh ?

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

ahahaha

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

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Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

azmie ckp .

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

omg !

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

urgh

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

bnyk itu

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

hahaha ,

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

bnykk kan .

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

pecah sia smlm

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

haha . boleh mati sial !

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

otak boleh burst .

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

taaaaaaaaau pon .

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

tk rase aku leh ingt .

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

Blaja last min pon tk guna tau .

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

bab besok konfem mcm org gyler .

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

takot nya psl ,

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

info yg igt sume ilang .

` SharifahEяіκαα ♥　　　　 says:

-.-

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

tu psl .

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ liαиy says:

scary .

I'll update again . Bye ~

Labels: Fuck exams ~

.Sunday, April 26, 2009@6:59 AM.

Okay , second post for the day . Idk why but i feel like blogging again and again today .

First of all , i just wanna say that I'm prepared to fail my Mid-year examinatons . I'm totally prepared , i supposed ?
Today , i don't know why i don't have the appetite to eat . I only ate a few slices of bread with nutella . I think i'm too nervous for tomorrow's paper . Help me God .

Problems are ocurring here and there . One after another . Lies here and there , one after another . What is really the problem here ? Sigh ~

You were there to light my day , you were there to guide me through .
I'll never stop thinking of you . how can i forget all that ?
When you're the one who make me smile . How i wish you were still mine .
Never will forget the days , how we fight and gave things up .
It's me who said goodbye but that's the hardest thing to do .
Cause you mean so much to me . And that's the truth from me to you .
For all the things I've done and said , for all the hurt i've caused you .
I hope you will forgive me baby , cause that wasn't what i meant to do .
I Love You , I need you around .

Labels: Love .

.@12:24 AM.

I'm really fucking nervous for tomorrow's paper . I don't know why but i have the strong feeling that i'll fail very badly .

Currently playing Yoville at Facebook . Hahha . I made some new friends there . LOL .
They are quite friendly though . The weather now is perfect . Windy & cold outside . I guess with this kind of weather right now , i'll snooze off soon . Hahaha .
This is the perfect weather for sleeping . Ask the sleeping pigs out there and they'll agree with you (:

Dear rain , please come back tomorrow early in the morning . I wanna have the assembly in class . Heh ,

So , tomorrow - wearing of tie day . Gosh . Haha .
The retarded students of Bedok North Secondary School .
It's already 3.37 pm . And i've yet to eat . Since morning .
Wait ! I smell something . And i think it's coming from the kitchen .
Okay , lame . But whatudu . HAHA .
Being lame for the sake of hungriness . - Idk what i'm talking .
Bear with the post . IM FUCKING BORED ! (:
Get that ? I wanna eat ! Okay Bye ~

Labels: Rain oh Rain .

.Saturday, April 25, 2009@2:49 AM.

For goodness sake , i'm missing Modern Dance like hell right now .

Monday , first paper will be out . English and Malay paper 1 . Which is composition and letter writting and stuffs . Tuesday , Social studies . I can predict that i'm sure to fail all these .
Plus , i didn't sit for my Oral . I swear i'm gonna fail badly this time round . Very badly .
I just can't afford to fail my N level . It will bring me to no where .
Maths ? No hope . I slacked again after a few months . Combined humans ? No need for you to ask . Talking and playing was what i did all the way . Physics & Chemistry ? 50-50 . I understand Physics more compared to Chemistry . All these bonding & atomic structures make me sick . For me , Physics is understandable . I supposed ? English ? 50-50 . Low chances of getting a passing mark . Art ? I don't know . I'm still at the starting of DEVELOPMENT . Can you see how slow am I ? Malay ? 50-50 also . It's hard , plus it's the same standard as the Express stream cause i'm taking O levels for Malay . What's next ? I bet it will be even worse if I don't change for the better before it's too late . I really need to buck up . Stressed up already .

Anyway , sorry for not updating . Yesterday after school hours , went slacking with Yani ,& gang at 600+ .

And to you , you know who you are . Sorry for the misunderstandings that we faced before this . Im really sorry . I didn't mean it . But now , you're with your loved one . And i really hope that you last long with her . It's just too hard to describe what i'm feeling . All the best (:
To Yaat , eversince that very incident happened . I have trust you no more . And i'm happy with the way i'm living right now . I can't deny that you're a good friend . But , we're just friends . Not more , right ? You can say whatever you want about me but whatever happens , happens . I still stick to my decision .
And ____ , I'm sorry but i know im not for you . It's the fact . I'm sorry that all these have to happen . Find a better one in future . (:

And ______ , I wonder eh . How can guys easily forget about girls whom they once loved ? And you guys easily find a replacement when the girl is still struggling to get rid of you guys . How eh ? I really need help on that part . Till now , im still struggling . You're there enjoying and i'm here alone trying real hard to forget you and move on . It seems like i can't . Eventhough it's been months . Things between us is getting too complicated . Because of you , i've lost my interest in studies and stuffs . But , life goes on . I really need your help . Please , please stop contacting me . After things are back to normal after the arguement we had , you started contacting me back . I really need you no more . You're just worthless and a waste of time . I don't wish to say all these and i don't really expect all these to happen . Distance yourself from me , please .
Lastly , ______ . Don't ever have high hopes on me . You can't predict what will happen after this . You can say you like me , but as a friend or good friend . But not more . " I like everything about you . " - What do you mean ? You don't know me deep inside . I may be a girl who acts like this infront of you and acts like that behind you . Get it ? I'm just not ready . Understand me . But still , i regard you as my best guy friend (:

.Thursday, April 23, 2009@3:57 AM.

Went slacking after school with Gergerl , Yani & Fyka . Full of laughters .
And , i really want to quit smoking . I don't want to pause , i want to stop .
I want to put a stop to every bad attitude of mine & im trying real hard this time round .
Friends , please guide me through . Cause i know it aint easy for me to do all these alone .
I need some guides and tutorials on how to do these and thats .
Yeah . That's it .

I bet today was a disasterous one for Azmie . HAHA .
Sorry for ruining your beautiful hair -.-
Hahaha . I didn't mean to destroy your hair . I want no revenge from you .

HAHAHAH .

And for today , Malay class was quite a great one . Was quite full of laughters

seeing Mr Amir's reactions and stupid stuffs he did . Haha .

And so , to that fucking teacher . You made things harder for me . You know that ?
You made some of the teachers look down on me based on my attitude .
I'm sorry but I don't give a fucking shit about what the other teachers might want to say about me . I really don't care . You made such a big fuss out of a small matter .
And , don't talk cock with me . Since when did you call me ? And you knew that i owned a handphone ? I know every student has their own handphones . BUT NOT ALL .

And , you are not the one who make rules for the candidates . Even my teacher didn't tell us anything about surrenderring our handphones to you . So , why must you make it such a difficult problem to handle ? Do you know that eversince you came into our school and joined to be part of Modern Dance , the Modern Dancers already hated you from the start .
We don't hate you for no reason . We simply hate you because of your fucking stupid mouth .
Talking non-stop and you can't even lend a helping hand to the dancers when we are in need of help .
You only think about yourself . You make rules for us . Stupid rules - Teachers cannot help students keep their props because the teachers only give instructions . The teachers cannot help .
What the hell are you trying to tell us ? You're full of bullshits . And to my opinion , good teachers will always be there for their students . Help students if problems ocurr . And that good teacher is willingly to help their students to do these and thats . I won't want to elaborate much cause this is a story of yesterday . I won't want to prolong . But no matter what , i won't seek for ur forgiveness . Mark my words .

Labels: You ain't a big fuck who orders people around .

.Wednesday, April 22, 2009@5:17 AM.

Days grow longer and as the time goes by , things are taking their change .
My love for you will remain no matter how the weather change .
My love for you will not fade away no matter how tough the life may be .
My love for you will stay strong no matter how cruel the reality is <3

Labels: Come back please

.@1:37 AM.

You don't fucking deserve to be a teacher .

Because of you , i can't sit for my Oral . And if I fail for this round's exams , I'm gonna put the fucking blame on you . KNNCCB ~

p/s : Im so not in the mood . And my dear school friends , if i accidentally shouted and throw vulgarities at you guys , im really sorry . (':

And friend , thanks for the hug just now . Thanks for comforting me just now dude (:

Labels: Teachers like you are BULLSHIT ~

.Monday, April 20, 2009@5:47 AM.

SICCCCCCCCCCCCCK ~

* To Yaat - Laen kali mau paitao , paitao lebih-lebih ehh . Pukimak betol .

.Sunday, April 19, 2009@1:48 AM.

As promised , here are the pictures taken after SYF .