.Saturday, April 25, 2009@2:49 AM.
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For goodness sake , i'm missing Modern Dance like hell right now .
Monday , first paper will be out . English and Malay paper 1 . Which is composition and letter writting and stuffs . Tuesday , Social studies . I can predict that i'm sure to fail all these .
Plus , i didn't sit for my Oral . I swear i'm gonna fail badly this time round . Very badly .
I just can't afford to fail my N level . It will bring me to no where .
Maths ? No hope . I slacked again after a few months . Combined humans ? No need for you to ask . Talking and playing was what i did all the way . Physics & Chemistry ? 50-50 . I understand Physics more compared to Chemistry . All these bonding & atomic structures make me sick . For me , Physics is understandable . I supposed ? English ? 50-50 . Low chances of getting a passing mark . Art ? I don't know . I'm still at the starting of DEVELOPMENT . Can you see how slow am I ? Malay ? 50-50 also . It's hard , plus it's the same standard as the Express stream cause i'm taking O levels for Malay . What's next ? I bet it will be even worse if I don't change for the better before it's too late . I really need to buck up . Stressed up already .
Plus , i didn't sit for my Oral . I swear i'm gonna fail badly this time round . Very badly .
I just can't afford to fail my N level . It will bring me to no where .
Maths ? No hope . I slacked again after a few months . Combined humans ? No need for you to ask . Talking and playing was what i did all the way . Physics & Chemistry ? 50-50 . I understand Physics more compared to Chemistry . All these bonding & atomic structures make me sick . For me , Physics is understandable . I supposed ? English ? 50-50 . Low chances of getting a passing mark . Art ? I don't know . I'm still at the starting of DEVELOPMENT . Can you see how slow am I ? Malay ? 50-50 also . It's hard , plus it's the same standard as the Express stream cause i'm taking O levels for Malay . What's next ? I bet it will be even worse if I don't change for the better before it's too late . I really need to buck up . Stressed up already .
Anyway , sorry for not updating . Yesterday after school hours , went slacking with Yani ,& gang at 600+ .
And to you , you know who you are . Sorry for the misunderstandings that we faced before this . Im really sorry . I didn't mean it . But now , you're with your loved one . And i really hope that you last long with her . It's just too hard to describe what i'm feeling . All the best (:
To Yaat , eversince that very incident happened . I have trust you no more . And i'm happy with the way i'm living right now . I can't deny that you're a good friend . But , we're just friends . Not more , right ? You can say whatever you want about me but whatever happens , happens . I still stick to my decision .
And ____ , I'm sorry but i know im not for you . It's the fact . I'm sorry that all these have to happen . Find a better one in future . (:
To Yaat , eversince that very incident happened . I have trust you no more . And i'm happy with the way i'm living right now . I can't deny that you're a good friend . But , we're just friends . Not more , right ? You can say whatever you want about me but whatever happens , happens . I still stick to my decision .
And ____ , I'm sorry but i know im not for you . It's the fact . I'm sorry that all these have to happen . Find a better one in future . (:
And ______ , I wonder eh . How can guys easily forget about girls whom they once loved ? And you guys easily find a replacement when the girl is still struggling to get rid of you guys . How eh ? I really need help on that part . Till now , im still struggling . You're there enjoying and i'm here alone trying real hard to forget you and move on . It seems like i can't . Eventhough it's been months . Things between us is getting too complicated . Because of you , i've lost my interest in studies and stuffs . But , life goes on . I really need your help . Please , please stop contacting me . After things are back to normal after the arguement we had , you started contacting me back . I really need you no more . You're just worthless and a waste of time . I don't wish to say all these and i don't really expect all these to happen . Distance yourself from me , please .
Lastly , ______ . Don't ever have high hopes on me . You can't predict what will happen after this . You can say you like me , but as a friend or good friend . But not more . " I like everything about you . " - What do you mean ? You don't know me deep inside . I may be a girl who acts like this infront of you and acts like that behind you . Get it ? I'm just not ready . Understand me . But still , i regard you as my best guy friend (:
Lastly , ______ . Don't ever have high hopes on me . You can't predict what will happen after this . You can say you like me , but as a friend or good friend . But not more . " I like everything about you . " - What do you mean ? You don't know me deep inside . I may be a girl who acts like this infront of you and acts like that behind you . Get it ? I'm just not ready . Understand me . But still , i regard you as my best guy friend (:
