Bittersweets in life .

.Sunday, May 31, 2009@1:17 AM.

Likeeeeeeeeeee finally lah sey . School's out ! Enjoy ah enjoy ~
But too bad , can't enjoy to the fullest .
Schedule's gonna be damn tight .

1st June - O level Malay paper
2nd June till idk when - study for Prelim (Of course there's a break in btw)
6th June - Woohoo ! (Ada ah)*kening naek-naek*
7th June - Outing ( Not confirmed )
8th June to 12th June - Remediaaaaaaals ~ ergh .
9th June - Swimming Outing (: ( Yet to be confirmed )

Yeah , that's it . More outings to planned . Sooooooooooooon okay friends ? (:
Saper2 nk ikot , inform lah eh . The more the merrier (:
Sooooooo , tomorrow's my Malay paper . Afterwhich , will be going for Art remedial .
Goodluck to me eh :/

And , the last day of school which is on Friday , attended only Chemistry lesson & off loitering around the school with the boys .
Yeah , that's it . I will probably be updating tomorrow .
No promises ;D

I'll leave you guys with some pics took on the last day of school . Not much of it .

Labels: Moreeeee outings pls and I'm missing you like hell ~

.Saturday, May 30, 2009@4:53 AM.

Yeah , deleted the previous post .
I'm in good terms with her already .

Ps : I just need a lil more patience .

.Wednesday, May 27, 2009@5:21 AM.

- INACTIVE -

Won't be blogging for the moment . Busy preparing for exams & schools .

Takecare assholes (:

.Saturday, May 23, 2009@6:00 AM.

I wanted you & only you . Neither do i wanna lose my friends .
They mean the world to me . So do you .
I'm craving for your love .

* And to you , yes . I do treasure you . Down deep in my heart , I admit i missed you .
But I can't see the reason why you're trying to avoid from me .
What else did i do wrong to you ? Why must you create another scene ?
Problem after another . What's wrong with my life ? My life's such a disaster .
Sometimes , i feel that it's useless to live in this world any longer .
Just appreciate me won't you ? I don't ask for more , but atleast . Atleast , appreciate our friendship that we've gone through for this 8 years . We've gone through many obstacles .
Tell me , which human doesn't make mistakes ? Everyone does , love .
I don't know what else to say . But one thing for sure , If i let you go , i would wonder for the rest of my life .
& I really care and love our friendship . Thanks for everything , love . Don't let this matter destroy our friendship . Once again , I love you <3

Enough of my jiwang-ness . Hahaha .
Went out to meet Hidayah just now and slacked awhile .
Home sweet home & i'm here blogging .
Anw , this is my second post for the day .
The previous post should be posted on today's date . But , sot-sot uh nie bender(:
Takecare assholes .

.Friday, May 22, 2009@9:46 PM.

Thanks for your understanding & stuffs .
But the feeling of guilt is surrounding me now . I feel bad towards you .
Yes , I love you as my sis too , little girl . After thinking twice ,

Since i'm older than you , i should give in . I'm sorry for getting in your way .
& now , i believe that you're hurt deep inside despite the smile you've always given me .
I don't know what to say & do , but to accept your offer .
I'm reaaaaaaaaaaally sorry lil sis . I promise you that this won't happen again the next time round . I promise you that .
Another thing , i promise you that i'll love him with all my heart .
Once again , i'm sorry . Thousands of apologies .

Labels: I swear .

.@3:53 AM.

I knew someday it would have to end .
I knew eventually I would have to go back to calling you friend .
It's killing me that now that day has come .
If it's for the best then where is this pain from .
I know deep inside that this is what I had to doubt .
It's breaking my heart to walk away from you .
I'm trying my best to appear strong .
But it's hard when part of me says that in your arms is where I belong .
I still love you with all my heart .
& That's not going to change even though we're apart .
You were my first love and my first kiss .
There are so many of our special times I'm going to miss .
All the words I ever said or wrote still hold true .
But for now from a distance is where I'll be loving you .
I think you need me as a friend to help you through .
Because there are things I can't control that are hurting you .
We both have issues no one knows of .
Neither of us had the strength to be true to our love .
Maybe we will be together again if it was meant to be .
But for now please don't stop loving me .
Even though I'm no one to you .
I'll still be here , With a shoulder to cry on or a sympathetic ear .
The story of love can be quicker than the blink of an eye .
But our story of won't be over until the day that we die .

Labels: ♥

.Tuesday, May 19, 2009@5:33 AM.

I'M TIREEEEEEEED (:

Just a brief explaination of what happened today .
Had a bad cramp . And due to that , can't concentrate during lessons .
Mr Amir was good to me in the morning just now , knowing that i had a bad cramp .
Reaaaaaaal good . I was allowed to rest throughout his lesson .
Thank you Mr Amir (:

Had an assembly at 12.30 . The timing should be correct lah , heh .
But as for the 2009 SYF's participants was told to head for the AVA room .
Alaaaaaa , makan-makan uh . Celebrate gytuuuuu .
Got a trophy and certificate each .

At 2.30 , was supposed to report for our Malay remedial .
Iany , Jo , Idy & Shaf left me and Hidayah behind .
So , me and Hidayah ended up sitting at the void deck of 663 .
Waited , waited , waited . Hanani came out of school and joined .
Waited for Mardhiah . So afterwhich , proceeded to 667 and slacked there .
Had much fun (:
Around 6.40 , we went home .

Till the next update , takecare assholes (:

* And to Nabilah of 2H , prangai takmo adek-adek uh siak . Come on lah , be matured .
Hal nie dah settle kan ? Apasal kau nk ungkit-ungkit lagi ? Sengajer nk saketkan hati org ? OR kau tak suker tgk org happy ? And please lah , bilang kawan-kawan kau yg maseh immature tu sumer , jgn suker-suker hati nk masok campor hal org laen . Even your "BESTFRIENDS" . If theyare really your bestfriend , they won't leave you crying when we wanted to settle about this one-to-one that day ? Remember ? They all went home leaving you alone , crying . Tu kau panggil kawan ? Bukak lah mata kau besar-besar . Sebelom kau tau aku saper , kau mati-mati ckp kau ngan kwn2 kau tak takot dgn aku and Aishah sampai nk angkot kawan-kawan kau jumper kiter , rembat kiter sumer . What's all this ? Nie sumer bullshit lah . Step maner nyer budak baju . Kawan kau yg msg aku tu pon muker cuak siak biler aku maki dier up and down . Korg nk maki-maki , kutok-kutok aku sumer ? I'll do the same towards you . Like what people say , what goes around comes around .
Skrg , Aishah bilang aku laen criter , kau bilang aku laen criter . Aper nie sumer ? Takmo world uh sia . I trust Aishah , but not you . Come on , aku knal dier lamer dari aku kenal kau . First , kau dah world by bad-mouthing about Aishah . Kau ckp dier start dulu lah aper lah . And now , kau nk world yg kau tgl blk 654 kat bedok reservoir ? Padahal kau tgl daerah Marine Crescent saner . Kau tak boleh tipu kite lah . Info ketat babe . Dah lah , see you in school eh . Tapi takmo jeling aku plak . Takmo tunjok terror (:

Labels: Nonsense

.Monday, May 18, 2009@4:30 AM.

Sorry for not updating for the past two days .
First and foremost , Aila , ignore the previous post . Let it be the past .
So , Saturday went slacking with Hidayah . Riduan joined us for awhile . Ard 6.20 , we went off home .
So on Sunday , went out with dearest cousins . Had much fun .
Went to Marina and played arcade , pool & lots more . Thanks Yanda for the treat (:
And before I forget , i owed you guys pictures took on Friday & Sunday .
Enjoy ~ ( Sorry kalau gambar masai eh )

And today , after school went for Malay remedial . Quite fun (:

After that , met Hidayah at 663 and off to slack with some fun peeps .
Until the next update , takecare assholes .

Labels: outings, Schools, slacking

.Friday, May 15, 2009@7:12 PM.

Well , had my 2.4km run yesterday . I failed my 2.4 despite me giving my best .
Yeah , some people did cheat . Thought of cheating too but didn't want to .
Good kan ? (:
And now , cramps all over my body . How ? Nk jalan pon susah .
Waduh-waduh . HAHAHA .

So yesterday , instead of going for my Malay remedial , me & Jo who's supposed to turn up for the remedial , went slacking . HAHAHA .
But not for long . Went home and got ready to meet Irdayah .
Went to downtown lah . Aper lagi .
Took some pics . But i'm not going to upload it now .
I'll upload it in the next post . Bnyk tau gmbr muker burok2 (:

And to Aila , pls eh . Aku tknk gadoh psl bender kecik . And sorry eh , i'm not criticising him . And i also didn't say that im the best kan ? Mmg aku bodoh , unlike kau kan , pandai .
Buat homework ker tk , tetap Amir side kau . Sebab kau pandai . Betul tak ? Aku tknk prolong nie matter eh , pls .

.@6:24 AM.

I'm soooooooo not going to do a proper update today .

I'm fucking shagged .

Takecare Assholes .

Labels: Besok aku update eh (:

.Thursday, May 14, 2009@1:53 AM.

Browsed through my laptop and decided to post some pictures of me wearing different shirts .
Since someone is trynna say that i doesn't have enough clothes in my wadrobe .
There's alot more but i can't be bothered to upload . So , how ? Still saying that my wadrobe is lacking of clothes ? Oh , talk to your screen then .
Passerby , you have a real name don't you ? Then why didn't you tag me using your beautiful name ? And like what i said on my tagboard , I have my own life and i can live it the way i wanted . Wether to wear the same clothes over and over again or not . Why you bother ? If you just hate the way i dress or whatsoever , just keep your comments to yourself . There's no need for you to "dirty" my tagboard . Cause people like you , isn't welcomed to read my blog and dirty it . Last but not least , look your ugly-self in the mirror first and comment on yourself first , before commenting on others . Ayeeee ? I just don't understand teens nowadays . Spamming is all they does . And sometimes i wonder . Why must humans like you guys even exist in this world ? Bear that in mind , passerby (:

Didn't went for Malay remedial . Slacked instead .
Afterwhich , went to Macdonalds to eat . And home sweet home .
Tomorrow's having 2.4km run . I wanna get it done and over with (:
Till the next update . Takecare assholes .

p.s : I somehow , missed my nose piercing . *hehehe*

Labels: Spammer has no life

.Wednesday, May 13, 2009@1:23 AM.

Just came back home from school . Sungguh the tireeeeeeeeeed .
Went to school as per normal . Every lesson , mesti jer ader yg tegur aku suruh pay attention .
Even if i'm not talking . Nari suay . Sweeeeeeeeear .
Lagi-lagi Malay period . Fuuuuuuuh , gerek oi . Meja aku ngan Hidayah kener tarik pastu dibuang . HAHAHA . Kerusi ngan beg pon kener tendang .
Mr Amir , apasal tu mcm ? Tunjok terror uh tuuuuuu ? Aku and Hidayah tak takut lah (:
Kiter kalau boleh , tiap-tiap lesson kau , kiter nk duduk luar class . Eh Hidayah ? *hehehehehe*
Kiter tak interested lah dey . Lesson kau very the mendak .
Nie lah cikgu-cikgu zaman sekarang . B-I-A-S .
Suke nah ajar budak express . Pasal aper ? Pasaaaaal , they "brighten up" his days .
HAHAHAHAHA .

Okay , aku nk mkn . Makanan dah depan mater oiii ! (:
Takecare assholes .

Labels: Penaaaaaaat ~

.Tuesday, May 12, 2009@4:28 AM.

Currently playing Yoville at Facebook .
HAHAHAH . Make money uh -.-
Won't elaborate much . Went to AVA room for CME Lesson just now .
Story-telling and stuffs . Best ~
HAHAHAHAHAH . Went for Malay remedial after school at 2.30 .
Did a test paper . Haaaaaaaard sia . Wtf gytu .
I tried handing in my uncomplete paper , but to no avail .
At last , cabot uh apa lagi .
Hahaha . And off to home . Till the next update .
Takecare assholes .

* Cepaaaaaaaaaaaaaat lah online (:

.Sunday, May 10, 2009@11:25 PM.

As promised , here are the pictures i owed you guys . Haha , but sorry eh , sumer gambar masaaaaaaaaai ~ There are more pictures but i'm just too lazy to upload all the pics .

Labels: I WANNA GO OUUUUUUUUT .

.@7:43 AM.

Wondering when you'll be mine ~ Hahahah .

Just came back from an outing with dearest cousins .
Went to Expo , Tampines Mall & Century Square after that .
Did quite alot of shopping . Woohoo ~
Next time , buat lagi kay cousins ? HAHAHA .
At Expo , me & Faezah eye-candied . Woooooh ! Maot-maot nya *wink-wink*
HAHAHAHA . Stop it .
Kay , afterwhich , procceded to TM cause Expo has nothing . Bored lah siul .
Stakat beli makaaaaaaan jer . Heh ,
Reached TM , my deareeeest cousin bought 3 pairs of shoes . Like loaded gytuuuu .
Faezah bought a pair of jeans & a pair of shoe which tidak kesampaian ; size habis lah kan .
LOL . Next time sudah girl . HAHAHA .
And i bought myself a few accessories and a pair of jeans too (:
Tinggal nk shop for more baju jer , eh Nur ? *wink-wink*

I'll upload the pictures tomorrow aye . I need to rest .
Good night , sweet dreams . Takecare dear assholes .

Labels: I want nobody-nobody but you .

.Saturday, May 9, 2009@8:13 PM.

That's Abg James ~

Well , good morning assholes .
To be exact , good afternoon .
It's 11.59 am .
I got nothing to do except to sit down and rot at home .
There's nothing much to share .

Well EQ , cheer up . Nie bkn rezeki kau .
Kau boleh try next time . Be happy cause you at least tried your best already .

Alright ? (:

Tears fall upon my cheeks when I recalled every moment we spent together .
Missing you is as always . In my heart , i missed you .
I won't forget every promises that i confessed . And those promises will always be in my heart .
Sincerely said , you're the one i love , forever .

Is it true that the love i once given you , isn't enough for you ?
Is it true that you won't be able to forgive me ?
Please forgive me . I want to pay back to you for every mistakes that i once made .
Tears fall upon my cheeks when i recall , you being sad and crying because of me .
Forgive me .

.@7:10 AM.

Boy , now that you finally know how my feelings is towards you , im relieved .
Cause i finally let it out after months of keeping it as a secret .
Yes , im sorry to let you know the truth when you're in a state of confused .
But i just can't keep it to myself much longer . I can't bear it .
I wanna be with you and love you like how i used to . And i admit that it was my mistake and i was so stupid to have let you go .
But now , i'm scared to face you after all the truth is out .
I won't wanna prolong this matter . It's just a matter of time .
It's your decision , boy . And i'll respect every decision that you make .
If you're happy , i'm sure to be happy for you too .
That is all i can say . I love you .

And oh , i just came back from the Anugerah thang .
EQ , all the best alright ? I'm sure you can make it for the next round .
I'm so sorry that i couldn't stay until the result's out .
All the best (:

I'm tired to type even longer . Takecare assholes .

Labels: I'm happy if you're happy .

.Thursday, May 7, 2009@5:44 PM.

Good morning dear assholes .
It's Friday , 08:45 am . I'm at home .
Caboooooooooooot . HAHA . Didn't go to school .
Cherlyn told me that only 17 people attended school . As in , for my class lah .
Only 1 Malay girl , Hazirah , went to school .
HAHAHAHAH .
Rabaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak paaa class aku ?

Well , planning to meet Iany & go for breakfast .
Yuuuummy ~
Hahahha . Iany just woke up though .
Now messaging with her .
Okay , i think i should get going now and bathe .
Yeah , I've yet to bathe .
I'll update when i'm back aye .
Takecare assholes .

Labels: You know i miss you .

.@1:05 AM.

Unbelievable . I managed to do most of the questions for today's paper .
Out of 26 questions , i managed to do 15 questions . Okay lah tu . Rather than Paper 2 , satuuuuu pon aku tak buat ~
HAHAHA . Atleast i can still score some marks for MATHS .

School finished off at 10 . Asked Johanis to wait for me and Dayya outside the toilet .
Came out , he's gone . Asshole betul .
Called him & he asked us to wait for him at 125 .Instead of waiting for him at 125 , we proceeded to 663 first cause i saw Iany , Dayah , Rad and many more .
Sat there and talked for almost 15-20 minutes and headed to 125 .
We thought Johanis reached already but it's the other way round .
Waited for him and he came with Idy & Shaf .
Then , walked off from 125 and went to another block .
Gedebak gedebuk , pegy maaaaaakan .
Lapar lah babe . Johanis wanted to eat thosei ( idk how to spell ) .
But I insisted on eating KFC .
We were the noisiest in KFC . HAHAHA !
Jo , Jo . Hahaha .

After that slacked awhile & home sweet home .
And Irdayah just got back home .
HAHAHAH ! Kan dayya ? (:

I'm not going to school tomorrow .
Takecare assholes .

ADIOS .

.Wednesday, May 6, 2009@1:08 AM.

First thing first . I'm sorry because i didn't update yesterday .
Didn't have the time to do so . Yesterday after school , went home and did my Art .

Around 5.25 , got out of the house and met Iany to do some revision .
Reached home ard 10+ .
Was too tired that i slept straight away after doing some packing of bag for school .

Today , was my Art & Physics paper . Cocked up . Seeeeeeerious .
Art , eventhough was given 3hours , still can't be finished .
Mine was halfway done . Only a few people managed to finished it off .
Dah lah tak lawaaaaaaaa , omg gytu .
Ahh ~

Finished off at 1+ and went home to change to house clothes and met Dayya for a while .
Now , i'm at home doing nothing cause i'm reaaaaally shagged .
Currently no energy , even to type .
HAHA . So , till the next update yeah ! (:
Takecare assholes .

Labels: I just missed you too much .

.Monday, May 4, 2009@3:17 AM.

History was manageable actually if i learned some of the points which i didn't .
Tomorrow , i'll be sitting for my Chemistry paper . Science isn't in my favourite list .
And i guess i'll do the Chemistry paper same as how i did for my other papers .
Alright , won't want to elaborate more .

Finished school at 10 supposedly . But was delayed until 10.30 due to the teperature taking -.-
& off to Macdonalds after that with Iany & Dayya . After that , home sweet home .
And i'm here blogging .

And and , this coming Friday will be our 2.4km run . I'm sure to fail .
And get a Bronze . Ahhhh , whatever ~
Life is sooooo hard . This and that . Ahh .

Okay i'm off to study . Wish me luck eh ! xD
Till the next update , assholes .

Boy , i'm going to miss you for these few days when you're away .
I will really miss you . Don't forget me eh , idiotic boy ? xD
I'll miss your laughs , your smiles .
In fact , i'll miss everything about you . Come back as soon as possible .
Kalau kau takder aku nk ngadu pat saper ?! Faham kau ? xD
I miss you & I love you <3

Labels: Thanks eh .